Monday, November 7, 2011

Bittersweet(ness) & a lot of mushy stuff...

I find myself becoming more and more excited for little Evie's arrival.  But, I also feel a little sad for the amount of time that we have left with Bobby being an only child (23 days or less!).  Giving Bobby the gift of a sibling is an amazing thing; yet, his little world will soon be turned upside down.  This afternoon, I put in Evie's last bit of clothes to be washed, and just held some of them in my hands.  They were so small.  I remember Bobby being that small.  Everyone warned me that time would fly by - and, it truly has.  And, people have also said that with each child, time goes by even faster.  Sigh.  

Lately, I've thought about my own childhood.  I had a great childhood, and wouldn't trade it for anything. Things were easy, innocent, and fun back then.  I want nothing more for my own children.  And, as a mom of soon-to-be two young children, I'm already feeling bittersweet about them growing up.  I tell Bob and my friends all the time, that I truly believe I'm living the best years of my life now.  And, that scares me.  Of course my days are tough.  So many things are a battle with Bobby.  I'm tired all the time.  I feel like I never live up to my potential each day.  But, I know that this is the season of life that I am in.  And, it's always what I wanted.  I thank God for that everyday, and for my husband, for providing me with this life.  But, days are fun.  I am constantly amazed at the new things Bobby does each day, and he is such entertainment for us.  It's so neat to see his little mind working, and trying to figure stuff out.

I've also neglected my blog a lot this year.  My posts compared to years' past are pretty pathetic.  I plan to change that.  I've always been too tired at the end of the day to blog.  And, naps are few and far between these days.  But, I'm going to try to make it work.  He's playing with his toys, while I am typing now.  And, yes, a football was thrown at my laptop, and I had to reboot.... but, that's motherhood for you!

I want to remember everything.  I want to cherish every memory; big or small.  I just want life to stand still for awhile.


Shannon said...

Sniff Sniff, Jen! This is such a honest post and I'm right there with you. Another child is certainly a blessing but no one's world will ever be the same again! Big changes lie just ahead but with those changes will come more love and precious memories! Evie is blessed to have a family like y'all and Bobby will be the best big bro ever! Take care of yourself and enjoy these final days... XO

jbeatty said...

DITTO DITTO DITTO to all of your sentiments! You probably already knew that as you read my blogs. Jennifer, you see my blog posts... they are nothing fancy or really that exciting but to me they are as I look back on them. It's so worth it to check in at least weekly with even the mundane things of every day life. You think you won't forget certain things and you do unless it's written down. You are such a sweet and loving Mommy. Your heart is about to grow more then you even know as you welcome your new baby into your family. xoxox

Jenny Postma said...

Jen this blog post made me miss you so much! You are an amazing Mom, one I really look up too. You are in my prayers and thoughts! This next chapter of life is going to be so wonderful I just know it! Love you!


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